*Writing prompts courtesy of my close personal friend, ChatGPT. lol
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*Writing prompts courtesy of my close personal friend, ChatGPT. lol
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Today, I am thankful for...
1. All the memes and reels that make me laugh, this meme and Rob Anderson's critique of Old Yeller being at the top of my list this week! lol
2. Kim (Rachel's mom) celebrating being cancer free and done with chemo!
3. Mom's joy in CHA's Junior High football season... she loves the sport and so loves the playfulness and wannabe-toughness of boys this age! lol (This = her with Jaceman, then her with TJ and Axel).
4. However clueless I am about it, it's been fun getting to cheer for Jace with the fam! This = a couple pics with Rach at his last game!
5. Zana Lynn, a CHA friend from yesteryear, has started her own business called Mindful Resolutions, LLC, helping at-risk youth learn to regulate their emotions and find a compromise. It's been a while since we've talked, but I'm proud of her and really happy to see her success here (and thankful for how it inspires me about what might be possible if I do my own thing with coaching)!
6. As of two days ago, the new Chicken Salad Chick is open in Norman... fun!
7. Hanging out with Miss Kyndal Faith, whom I adore! She and her friends are at a great age, and it's been fun talking to them at J's football games!
Today marks three years since I moved into the "Taberhood," so happy home anniversary to me!!
Today, I am thankful for...
1. Teresa, whose birthday is today!! ❤ I'm grateful for her friendship and support and kindness through the years... and of course, I'm thankful for the key role she played in raising the best person I know!
2. That my niece and youngest nephew are having a fun Fall Break... Rach took them TPing Tuesday night, and seeing this pic brings back lots of fun memories!!
3. Happy, colorful fresh flowers! On the latest Eldredge podcast, they talked about how the beauty we find in our favorite parts of God's creation has a powerful healing impact on our souls, and I've been thinking about that and looking for it more since. For me in this season, it's the details of colorful flowers and the calming effect of being near water (ponds, lakes, oceans, even pools).
5. A last-minute lunch plan with Mom yesterday... good talk, good food, and good for me! ❤
6. Long story, and I can't go into all the details here, but I'm grateful for what God has taught me through my first and last paying client at ITS! I was questioning the value of counseling and feeling like access to money made more of a tangible difference in people's lives than any counseling skill or intervention ever could, then something happened that flipped that script and reminded me that strong relationships and self-respect are worth more than anything money can buy. It's been a journey the past couple months, but I needed that reminder! Starting to feel more like myself again, and I'm grateful.
7. At Jace's football game, a kind mom came over to talk to Rach for a bit, and she was wearing a cute t-shirt that said, "Motherhood is Kingdom Work." True, and I felt myself quickly tear up as I read it - reminding me that I'm not quite okay just yet - then I looked away and pulled myself back together. Yesterday was Infant Loss Awareness day, and there were several posts and podcasts that were helpful to me in this ambiguous grief. Anyway, in talking to Chet about that moment at Jace's game, without being dismissive of my emotions, he reminded me that a lot of other things I'm already doing or stepping toward qualify as valuable "Kingdom work." And again, I needed that reminder in this season! So I'm grateful for God-given reminders of better things ahead, for the gradual healing process I can feel, and for what is hopefully the first of many publishing contracts I got to sign this week!! ;-) (I was surprised to learn they're actually paying me to co-author a chapter of a counseling textbook with a CCU professor, and I laughed when they assumed I was also a professor - I'll take it.)
Rach and I joined Dad for the OSU game yesterday!!
This = us in our verrrry sunny regular seats before we moved to a spot in the shade - love this pic. My cap and the Chet fans were super helpful... I was very pleased that 2024 Lindsey left the orange sunglasses and those fans in my clear gameday purse! lol
As a past-oriented Ennegram 9 (something interesting I learned about in Suzanne's book this month), I like to look for patterns.
In spite of my genuine love for football season, Fair food, and Fall fun with friends and family, September has historically been a bit of a sad month for me...
2001 – My Senior year at CHA, crystalized memories of watching
the national news in Mrs. Young’s office on September 11th
2002 – Trying to find my footing as a new college student at OBU; unsure of my major
and not loving the bug-filled dorm room; very much missing my family and CHA friends
2010 – Frustrated with single life and shifting relationships; wrote my first blog post contemplating single motherhood (15th)
2012 – Struggling through a difficult Statistics class at
SNU-Tulsa
2013 – Got my printed SNU diploma the same day Malori
confirmed our friendship was over (9-6); Lots of grief over that ending + lots of time with
newborn Kyndal Faith
2014 – Came off of the antidepressant medication; Walked out of a crazy “prayer ministry” cult (9-19)
2015 – Received a maddening rejection email from SNU’s master’s degree
program (reason still unknown) on the day of Sarah’s monkey bread fiasco (9-25)
2016 – Gradually reconnected with a newly-married friend
after not speaking for seven months
2019 – Handwriting thank-you notes with Mom after
Grandad’s funeral
2020 – Malori announced her family was moving back to OKC, which ironically meant increasing tension and disconnection in our friendship
2021 – Car wreck in Ruby Claire just before my first home study with Shay at 522; (also finished my first adoption profile book)
2022 – Touring my nearly-complete new construction Taber home; lab
work and IUI appointments at OU Reproductive; processing some negative pregnancy
tests on my own
2023 – Adjusting to the busier schedule with my internship at Restore; Babah’s rapid decline, hospice, death, and memorial service
(The FB memory that got me thinking about this pattern today. I so love these pics of the Wilson fam!)
2024 – A jarring, friendship-altering conversation on the 3rd; my video interview for a CCU professor job (never heard back); the death of Maggie Smith
2025 – More vulnerable and emotionally-painful Dallas IVF appointments; feeling overwhelmed and under-motivated in multiple areas of life; paused my candidacy hours; briefly researched surrogacy; finally closed the embryo adoption chapter