26 Dates in 2026... that's the goal!
(1 down, 25 to go...)
*Insert: As of my b-day, this goal has been revised to 12 in 2026, and I'm very much counting on at least one relationship where there are multiple dates with the same man. The endless messaging with men I feel lukewarm at best about has become tiring, and the lack of ask-outs always hits old rejection wounds, so I am praying to hold onto the personal confidence and faith-fueled hope I felt here early in the year!! Okay, back to the original post.
It's off to a good start, or that's how I am choosing to frame it. When the goal is high numbers, failure or bad matches get reframed as success and narrowing the field. lol
After four days of app-messaging and texting (throughout the Disney trip) plus five hours of fairly-intense phone conversations, I made the drive to Fort Worth, Texas on Saturday for a five-hour date (coffee followed by dinner at Ruth's Chris Steak House) with a third-year law student! To be clear, he drove from San Antonio to meet me in Ft. Worth, so we were both putting in effort. I was very hopeful in the beginning, but due mostly to religious incompatibility about the exact path to salvation + some oversharing and dismissive tendencies on his end, it quickly became clear that K.P. was not the guy for me. Still, I am genuinely glad that I went and happy to be learning as I go here! (I have officially postponed my PhD program for one year, so in 2026, I will be putting more energy and time into the online dating apps and real world dating experience - and probably growing and learning just as much as I ever would have in school.) Here's my bathroom selfie at Avoca Coffee + a pic explaining that that hotel was where JFK spent his final night before his assassination (to be *very clear,* our restaurant was in a hotel, then I promptly drove back home.) lol
I am also very seriously leaning into the redemptive story arcs that God is so good at writing, paying more attention to the places where He has already brought redemption after loss or hard rejections (CCU after SNU being high on that list), and having more faith and hope that He is writing a good story for me, and that I can play an active part by seeking what I want and believing that I am worthy of it, (that I bring a lot to the table and it's okay to act like it)!
My confidence is up, my weight is down, my friendships are strong, my core values are solid, and I know I want more relational depth, intimacy, and fulfillment with a good, outgoing, assertive Christian man! We will see what God has in store. Megan's engagement story also helped to renew my hope, and my own focus on renewal is helping, too. God is good, and He is about redemption, healing, restoration, and giving us abundantly more than we ask Him for, so I am choosing faith and hope and confident expectation!
"As for me, I will look to the Lord, and confident in Him, I keep watch!"
❤ ❤ ❤
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