MINDSET SHIFT TIME! I'm reminding myself of this lately:
There's a lot of truth to that. I have "practiced noticing" all the best things about my favorite people and all the worst things about people who tend to annoy me. I've practiced noticing God's goodness, but also practiced noticing what is wrong in the church. Most recently, I have practiced noticing what makes the counseling profession difficult, but have not been actively seeking what makes it valuable and rewarding. I've practiced noticing how difficult the first part of dating is (the online search, the small talk, the buildup, the potential rejection anxiety)... but haven't practiced thinking about all that could go right, and my low expectations of men (NOT low standards, but the educated belief that most men will fail to live up to them) sometimes become a self-fulfilling prophecy.
So I want to practice noticing what is good and pure and lovely and uplifting, Philippians 4:8 style!!
I've been in kind of a rough headspace lately, feeling shame and wanting to disappear and hide, but this is helping me. I was practicing noticing my own faults and failings and struggle to find purpose, rather than practicing noticing all the opportunities to do meaningful things in the life I have right now. I need to give my heart some space to grieve for the life I wish I had in this season - and then I need to pull it together and move forward. It's the major themes versus the minor themes John Eldredge often talks about.
To be dramatic but honest, my heart has felt like a wilderness or desert... dry, barren, empty, parched, hidden, weary.... (not a mom, not a wife, not a counselor, not an author)... desolate, unchosen, unfruitful. And the verse I read today about God bringing abundant flowers and singing and joy into the desert (Isaiah 35:1-2) was really a refreshing breath of fresh air for my soul and spirit!
I am believing Him for that kind of redemptive beauty in my life story!! ❤ Lather, rinse, repeat.
And that's all for this post.
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