Monday, March 16, 2026

Hope Floats

  The rest of February was mostly relaxed.  I stand by my decision to take a break from school and not put extra pressure on myself to set new goals through January and February (of course, I did technically set dating goals in that season, but that's okay).

I felt some serious burnout with the counseling profession and schoolwork at the end of last year, along with sadness and confusion over what God is up to and what I should do with my desire for a family.

I don't have a lot of answers at this point, but I am grateful for the resilient nature of Kingdom hope.  For the knowledge that "when we go through deep waters," God is with us and for us.  The verse does not say if, but when.  No one gets through life unscathed, but we get to choose our response and whether we anchor our souls in the hope of Heaven.


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This was encouraging for me - believe in your ability to figure things out - YES!

And now, a couple lighter memes:



The Mini Miss K is being bullied by a petty former Coach in the club volleyball world.  It's absurdly poor leadership, and it is not okay, and I hope there is systemic change there.

In the meantime, I hope she knows she is loved and supported and valued and worth fighting for!

This = her Rise team taking silver in a Valentine's Day tournament!
Pierson, Emma, Addy, Alivia, Jacelyn, Coach Kate, Aniston, Kyndal, Kennedy, and Jayla!

Aunt Lindsey, Miss K, and her Mom!

Fierce serving power!!

The sassiness and leadership are strong with her! ❤

Valentine's Day is centered right between Rach and my birthday, and it also happens to be K-Faith's half-birthday! lol

Speaking of Valentine's day, here's a throwback to our 2010 Johnny Carino's dinner, or "the lonely hearts club dinner" as JEM calls it. lol  I'm sure Chettles and Natertot were entertaining for me, along with Sarah and Jeffrey close by.

Mmkay that's all for this post!
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42

This is 42. ❤


It's off to a pretty good start.  This = cozy TV time + dessert from Kristin after she treated me to a bday dinner at Hideaway!

Kyndal Faith ran for 7th Grade Class Chaplain (they will lead some Bible studies, prayers, and class chapels).  We helped her practice and refine her speech at family dinner, and Rach made this awesome sign for her.  Two other girls were also in the running, but Kyndal won, so that's worth celebrating!!  

Also inspiring me lately is the story of Alysa Liu, our first US female figure skater to win Olympic gold since 2002.  She walked away from the sport due to serious burnout then came back when she felt more connected and in control and joyful about it... it was all over my FB feed for a while, and it made me happy every time I saw it.  Having recently walked away from the doctoral program and pressing pause on some of my big goals, it's deeply encouraging to see someone do that and make a comeback on her own terms!

The last completed collage in my through-the-years life timeline - it's been quite the transformative era, and I'm still learning and growing! =)

Verse that feels encouraging:

Fam dinner and pizookies at BJs on my actual birthday! ❤

Table pic!  Rach and I shared the new butterfinger pizookie - yum!

Friend trio pic at 40 and 42

Marble Slab after dinner with LB and the Wilson fam!

Andolini's with the Tulsa crew on 2-16-26 (Tall Kyle was also there but left before this group pic).  Parker's face here makes me happy!


K-Renee and Hope Renee in matching shoes! ❤

Utica Starbucks chat before dinner and dessert (Sarah stopped by on her way from Kansas to Tahlequah)

JW and Annie F. are in a very serious relationship - this news and Megan's engagement are giving me a dose of fresh perspective and hope lately - that God writes redemptive stories - holding onto that hope in my own walk with Him is a challenge, but it's the goal this year!!

This is also important, and also challenging for me. lol

Reminders:

I've been making a real effort, including loads of small talk and repetitive introductory conversations with around 15 different potential matches.  It's more tiring than fun, honestly.  I want to move past this stage.  Male passivity is a real problem, and thus far, no one since K.P. has actually asked me on a date (until this morning (3-15-26), when I got a surprising last-minute breakfast invite from S.M. - didn't make it for that, but hopefully we can meet in person soon).  I'm doing my best not to personalize or catastrophize or feel too rejected here, to hold firm to my values and my inner value as a person, and to believe that God has good things in store!  I revamped the profile and signed up for a year-long eHarmony membership on March 1st.  Granted, my list of fun outdoor activities is shorter than most, but I do sincerely love pool parties, walk/jogs, cookouts, cheering for people I care about in races or sports, and hiking if I am promised fun photos. ;-)

I've taken a month+ off from blogging, but I'm catching up today!  Working virtually means less mandated desk time, and I just don't find myself writing as often.  But I have realized lately that I need to intentionally create time for that... it truly does help me to process my thoughts and feelings when things start to feel hazy or jumbled internally, and I still believe that writing my strong-over-small book will be cathartic and powerful for me!  Okay, good talk.  More posts on the way...

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Friday, February 13, 2026

Rach's 40th!!

We had Olive Garden dinner and Sam's cake at Mom and Dad's to celebrate Rach's 40th Birthday on Wednesday!!

In spite of my best efforts and spelling it 2x on the phone, the bakery misspelled her name!  And once again failed to make it fun and festive and glittery, but at least it accidentally matched her shirts! lol

Nom nom for us, David!


Yay for the Little Party Store in Sooner Mall!!  They were super helpful with the balloon bouquet!  And yay for Sam's cakes being tasty, even if their bakery decorators are a tad ridiculous.

One more family pic

True story.

And last but not least, here's the riff-off-style slideshow I made of 40 years in 4 minutes!! ❤

Happy Birthday, Rachael LaJo!
The best is yet to come!!
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Super Bowl Sunday!

After Kyndal's 1pm game then Tate's 2:30 birthday party, I drove to Mom and Dad's around 7pm to join their Super Bowl party!

Classic pic of Dad, Bill, Bill, and Rick

Their friendship through the years has brought us lots of laughs and good memories!

The girls... Debbie, Jill, me, Kyndal, Mom, and Rach!

Three generations!

The Wallaces (and Jesus)! =)

Jill, Bill, Bill's pic from yesteryear (football player in the #35 jersey above his head), and Jaceman! =)

Chatting with Bill & Jill!

The guys... Rick, Bill W., Jaceman, Dad, and Bill L.

Fun times!  For the record, the Seahawks beat the Patriots, and no one in our crowd cared much.
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