This was not the most stressful season of my life, but it was absolutely the most consequential decision I've ever been called to make. It involved a lot of prayer and inner wrestling and seeking wise counsel. To massively summarize it, I have decided to let go of my adoption plan while holding firmly to my faith in God's bigger plan. ❤
Emily and I talked about the "sunk cost fallacy" last week. Sometimes, we keep pushing and investing in something we know is not working purely because of how much we've already put into it. This is often the case in abusive marriages, bad relationships, and other misaligned decisions. I will try to be more aware of that dynamic as life moves forward, making the wise choice as early as possible!
My harmony-loving Enneagram 9 self was on the far end of the stress spectrum through most of August and September. Now I'm taking a breather to calm my frazzled nervous system before I make a 4th quarter comeback toward growth!!
A lovely Lake Hefner jog after my CBD oil & hot stone massage on Saturday!
#therapyhomework #arealquickyes
Reminding myself of this over and over...
"David, nobody cares!" -Alexis Rose
(Not that nobody cares about me, but that no one is analyzing my life or judging my every decision in the way I occasionally imagine. They're busy dealing with their own lives, and I am free to do what is right for me. And to let them think whatever they want about it.)
A key verse God used to speak to me lately.
Seeing our new "In God We Trust" on the courthouse while I'm out walking in Norman always makes me happy (this = the ground view from The Well right across the street from my office windows).
People guessed that today's look was for Halloween or OSU,
but it's just more T-Swift inspired orange brightness! =)
Let's hope so...
Truly, I'm saving most of the details for a future book, but this was not a small thing to me. It has been heavy and hard, and I was not okay for a bit. I am deeply grateful for the patience, wise counsel, and encouragement of Chet Lee, Mom, Emily, and Kristin. I'm gradually seeing the light at the end of this tunnel now, but still in the process of buttoning things up to close this lengthy and confusing chapter... while figuring out what my new chapter of life may look like and where to plant my focus moving forward.
I do not know what that will look like yet. But in a way that feels real and substantive to me, I trust that God has good things in store.
Wednesday walk with Kristin last week - happy to get back into that routine!!
It made me smile to see this and imagine myself stopping on the course to trace this random pumpkin whilst breathing deeply. I wouldn't put it past me. lol
"Anxiety isn't the problem. It's the alarm." This feels true for me (I feel jittery and anxious when things are out of alignment). I am working on trusting myself and paying attention to what my body is telling me more quickly on things like that!
Happy 45th Birthday to Jeffrey Edward, a real JEM of a friend for the past 15+ years!!
(These pics from his 33rd bday party still make me happy!) ❤
Happy Belated Birthday (57 yesterday, 10-6) to Mel Robbins!! What a gift her podcast and books and 2024 Launch program have been for me... excited to get to see her live in Dallas next April! ❤
Happy Belated Bday (36 on 10-5) to Travis Kelce! lol
And finally, Happy Belated Jesus-year Birthday (33 on 10-2) to Rachel Elizabeth, a fellow Swiftie and fun friend! I'm excited to see the Shoemaker fam in Tulsa again next month!! ❤
That's all for now.
As Jeffrey would say,
"Make it a great day!"
❤❤❤
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